I suppose it is that time again. It is time to finally catch the world up on my life. It has been too long since I have posted and there have been so many things I have wanted to say in the last year. It's been difficult to find time and motivation to post in between graduate school and working but inspiration has finally struck.
Well, I'm almost one and a half years into graduate school and I cannot believe it's coming to an end. I knew it would go by quick but not this quick. Overall, I have enjoyed it and I am still enjoying it. I feel like OCU has helped me tremendously in filling in the gaps from my education at SWOSU (not that my education was bad but there were definitely a few gaps). My confidence has increased as a teacher and as a conductor and I feel more ready to take on the world as a music teacher this time around. What are my plans after this? I'm not really sure. I hope to move to Texas and become a band director down there but as we know, God will always have plans for us that we may not know about until they finally happen...and I'm okay with that too.
I'm not really sure what the purpose of this blog is. I've had so many ideas run through my head that could have potentially made excellent blogs. I may have had one too many drinks this evening with my conducting colleagues so it'll be interesting to see how this turns out.
First of all, I am absolutely ecstatic that gay marriage is finally legal in the state of Oklahoma for so many reasons. We've made history! I often think of one of my professors telling me four years ago on the marching field that one day, things would be a lot different for homosexual couples. This was hard to believe four years ago and even six months ago. I find it incredible how far we have come as Americans to be so accepting of people different than the "norm." What is the "norm" anyway these days? Praise God for equal rights in our beautiful country.
On a different note, I am only three weeks shy of turning twenty-six years old. I feel so young yet so old at the same time. What an awkward age. It seems like a lifetime ago that I was a band director. And on a more different note, I'd like to discuss love and relationships. As often as I think about this subject and having a future with another person, I'm surprised I have not really blogged about this subject more. I'm also not sure what this is going to turn into...it may turn into a rant but I'm hoping it'll bring some closure and acceptance for myself.
I am absolutely sick of being used by people. Absolutely sick of it. For too long, I have been an "experimental phase" and I'm getting too old and growing too weary for this. It appears to be extremely difficult to find someone in this world that is rather attractive, has at least one college degree, knows the difference between 'your' and 'you're', and has a decent paying job. There is no such thing! I have so much love to give and I am really ready to settle down soon. Maybe this is God's way of telling me that now is not the time to get heavily involved with someone...after all, I do plan to move and start my career somewhere else within the next year. However, I suppose the human mind can't help but wonder.
I'm not sure what else to say at this very moment but at least I have something posted. This may have to be continued at a later time.
Till next time,
Erin Taylor
